Far too often do I think about tomorrow. Or the next thing. What do I need to do? I can't wait for what is next! Oh no, what am I going to do about this? Looking toward the future is a mixture of worry, fear, excitement, anticipation, and longing for me.
And it's not wrong to think about tomorrow. I should plan for tomorrow but live for today. I forget about where I am...the here and now. I lose sight of the people and places that I am currently experiencing, all in anticipation of the next great thing.
Because I teach small children, I easily focus on the here and now with them. I am focused on who they are today in my classroom. But, I am also preparing them for the future. For their tomorrow. Often, I hope tomorrow is better than today.
Like when one little boy made me want to drop-kick him on Tuesday.
The important thing to remember is that I didn't. Yet.
Kidding. Sort of.
It is a struggle for me to revel in a good experience because I gloss over it and look for my next adventure. I guess I never want to be disappointed. And nobody does. I think it is crucial for me to remain alert and be present. So I'm going to try. I will try by not wondering what is next and just "enjoying it for what it is." So many trusted friends have told me that in the last few months. And you know what? They were right.
Cousin, SNL, and TV have all told me that and it only took 4 months and 7 different ways to hear it before I understood and obeyed. I'm selective like that.
So, I'm going to enjoy my time with my 18 children today because I only have 12 more days with them. I'm going to enjoy the hustle and bustle to the end of my week. I'm going to enjoy time with a friend this evening and not worry about what happens next.
What will you enjoy doing in the present?
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